Pink

My favorite color is pink. Yeah, I'm a guy and my favorite color is pink. No, I'm not gay or anything like that. I just find that ask the greatest things in the world are pink. Pussy, rare steak, strawberry milk shakes, Victoria Secret, bubble gum, your partners tongue, cotton candy, breast cancer awareness everything and hey, we guys love tits, so let's support them and wear a bit of pink. Plus, honestly, pink shitted the ladies that you've got a softer side (if you're on the look out for a hook up). It's a soft color that can carry with it so many harder thoughts to the imagination. It's my favorite color because I love pussy. The Pinker, the better, because the more  pink the pussy is the redder the hair and I LOVE redheads! So now you know why I love the color pink and the way I see it: PINK is a true MANS color. So grow some balls, grow the fuck up, get over yourself and wear pink. If you love pussy and want to save all the beautiful tits of the world, you owe it to yourself to just give it a go. Hell, even Elvis knew what was up and he had women all the time. Chicks digg guys who at secure with their love of pink...they know that means you'll love their pink completely. ;-P Digg?

What about tomorrow?

I'm still hurt, angry, and basically distant. I don't even know what to do at this point. I'm doing everything in my power to maintain a positive disposition but i'm dying inside. A part of me longs for death, a release from this emotional hell. I feel sick to my stomach and I just want to crawl into a hole. This is not what I signed up for. Or is it? I know relationships are hard. More importantly, I know relationships such as this are not truly meant for human beings. Monogamy is not an innate trait we're born with, it's merely a learned communal behavior. But still, I hold true to my word and the vows I took are, to me, just that. So what about tomorrow? Must I feel like this another day? I feel so disconnected from the one most near and dear to my heart as well as the one second most near and dear to my heart. I suffer because of my wife. My wife suffers because I suffer. And our daughter suffers because she is the cause and victim of both her parents suffering inadvertently. This is not right. I don't know if I can take another day of this. My wife says she feels better now that we've talked things over but for how long? And personally, I do not. She wants to make love but I'm just not in the mood. I find myself pushing my daughter away when I know all she wants is her Daddy. And yet, she too pushes me away to avoid her mothers tension and pressure of suspicion. I guess I won't know what tomorrow brings until tomorrow comes so to sleep I must go. First though, I think I shall go to my sleeping daughter and apologize to her and hope that, either in her subconscious or waking conscious, she hears me.

Bullshit

So on a personal note, I'm having a big issue in my marriage right note that has been a matter of great displeasure on going for a while now. Distrust. Now, normally I honestly could give a shit less what anyone things or says about anything that think or know I'm doing or maybe doing but there is a few things that really get to me deeply. I don't like to be accused of things I would not and/or personally could not do. Which brings me to my point. For some reason,  beyond my comprehension, my wife seems to think I'm Fucking or am interested in Fucking our 11 year old daughter. As any respectable father should, I take great offense to this. I love my daughter, which is actually her daughter from a previous marriage, with every fiber of my being and view her as my own but would NEVER even entertain the thought of putting my penis our any other body part on or in her in any way! How dare she! I'm furious right now and feel justified and being so. Granted, a pass situation that occurred between us where she made an attempt to kiss me as if she were a grown woman from France, and was witnessed by her mother could have been handled a bit better by me as I just shrugged it off (as her just having a small crush and testing her limits) and sent her away from me. But even with that, that was nearly a year ago and I thought we came to an understanding. Regardless, this is Fucking bullshit! If this is what I have to look forward to everyone my daughter and I get close I'm not sure how much longer I can stay in this marriage. To be viewed as a predator, a pedophile, or a dirty old man is not my idea of a happy marriage. Maybe I should just let her go find a guy that can and will treat her better than I.
It's heat breaking to put all I have into this marriage and be met with this you're of opposition at every turn. I'm sick and tired of it and about at my breaking point. FUCK!!!

Storm clouds and Sunshine

In the beginning.... Fuck that! Straight to the point. The world, as we've come to make it, has turned to shit hole. We pollute, murder, burn, cut, and devour all we come in contact with. The few that do want better are met with strong opposition at every turn and in the end, no matter how many individuals try to bring about change for a better tomorrow, the majority are vastly out numbered by minority. Yeah that's right, I said it just like I meant to. Our government is the minority yet we, the little people (oh poor pitiful us...please) lay there and act like the Fucking damsels in distress. We complain about this, bitch about that, but never do we collect as one mind body. Sure we have marches, and protest, and community meetings but the honest truth is that nobody gives a good shit. Unless EVERYONE came together to march for a cause, for change, nothing will EVER change. We are played for fools every single day. But how do they do it? Easy answer: MONEY. It takes money to get power, it takes power to get more money, and the more money X has the less chance Y has to get in on it. We are ruled by the wealthy and powerful. The only thing that has changed since we conquered America to free ourselves from the rule of England is instead of having a royal family ruled by a king & queen, we are ruled by a single selected rich idiot whom we expect to make miracles for we the little people while he, himself, is one of the rich pompous asses we're attempting to save ourselves from. Not only that, but even that one rich idiot, who may actually have our best interest at heart, is not truly in control of Shit! Hue is controlled by a senate, cabinet of opposing assess that ultimately have final say over whatever the rich idiot proposes all by easy of a majority vote. What s goddamn joke! Kinda Fucking stupid. We traded a king/queen combo for a single minded rich bitch. Trade our royal court for a house of representatives, delegates, house members, and opposing rich assholes with to much money & power and not enough common damn sense. You want freedom, true freedom? Move the fuck out of the U.S., go to Thailand, Tibet, China, Singapore, Japan, or anywhere there are Taoist and/or Buddhist temples and join for life. No more pointless, mindless, back breaking, under appreciated, life stealing labor work for shit pay only to end up fucked after you retire cause you can't get it up, can't walk, can't see, everything hurts, and nobody gives two good shits. You gotta free yourself from slavery. So how does one go about this you ask? Good Fucking luck finding a straight goddamn answer. When you figure it out you tell me. Until then free your mind and you're soul will follow.

Start sharp!